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Hi everyone, sigh! Life's been a rollercoaster lately and I know I completely left with a cliffhanger with my last journal entry.. First of all I just want to apologize for not updating.. You guys really mean a ton to me and that was the least I could have done. So here's an update-- sit tight, and I'll do my best to sum up everything without putting you to sleep 
The history is this: I've had a chronic wrist sprain since early 2008, and it's been gradually getting worse. I went through physical therapy for a year with no improvement, and just decided to live with it because it wasn't too unbearable as long as I didn't strain it. Drawing and painting was doable, but as the years went on, the pain started to surface sooner into my drawing sessions (eventually I'd only last 10 minutes drawing/painting before feeling pain). So I slowed down on art and just studied, ultimately working toward my bachelors degree a couple years ago.
Early last year, I found out I got into a post-grad program and they required a physical to be done, so while I was at my doctor's, I brought up my wrist. I had an appointment with a specialist, had an MRI done (where a doctor completely annihilated my wrist during injection and the pain was so bad and frequent I had to buy a wrist splint to wear for work, which I've never needed before), and awaited the results.
The result showed a cluster cyst wrapped around the radial artery in my right wrist, and the doctor asked me if I wanted to proceed with surgery, to which I was excited to finally find a treatment and agreed. After a month or so of waiting for the procedure (the surgeon apparently went on vacation for a whole month), I was finally in a hospital bed, IV'd up and everything, minutes away from being rolled into the procedure room. The same doctor (who was also the surgeon) approached me:
Dr: Where do you feel pain?
Sorry, I said this would be short but instead it's a whole novel long!
TL;DR: Due to apparent miscommunication, the surgery was canceled and my chronic wrist sprain has since been left untreated.
Thanks to everyone who has wished me well, and who has stuck by me until now! You're all the best!! I've been painting a bit lately and I'll post some of it up.
Cheers!
SP
The history is this: I've had a chronic wrist sprain since early 2008, and it's been gradually getting worse. I went through physical therapy for a year with no improvement, and just decided to live with it because it wasn't too unbearable as long as I didn't strain it. Drawing and painting was doable, but as the years went on, the pain started to surface sooner into my drawing sessions (eventually I'd only last 10 minutes drawing/painting before feeling pain). So I slowed down on art and just studied, ultimately working toward my bachelors degree a couple years ago.
Early last year, I found out I got into a post-grad program and they required a physical to be done, so while I was at my doctor's, I brought up my wrist. I had an appointment with a specialist, had an MRI done (where a doctor completely annihilated my wrist during injection and the pain was so bad and frequent I had to buy a wrist splint to wear for work, which I've never needed before), and awaited the results.
The result showed a cluster cyst wrapped around the radial artery in my right wrist, and the doctor asked me if I wanted to proceed with surgery, to which I was excited to finally find a treatment and agreed. After a month or so of waiting for the procedure (the surgeon apparently went on vacation for a whole month), I was finally in a hospital bed, IV'd up and everything, minutes away from being rolled into the procedure room. The same doctor (who was also the surgeon) approached me:
Dr: Where do you feel pain?
Me: Here (points to back of wrist)
She proceeded to tell me that my pain was not located near my cysts and that there was a risk of damaging my radial artery if there were any complications during surgery (the risks I already knew), and that because my pain was far from the cysts, the surgery would probably not relieve the pain I was experiencing. That was something I didn't know. She then asked if I was still willing to do the procedure.
The thought in my head: Are you kidding me? You couldn't have told me this before? I waited a whole month for this surgery when I could have been getting a second opinion and possibly treatment elsewhere? Side note: I was on a time crunch. My post-grad program (halfway across the country) was starting soon and I needed all the time I could for recovery if a surgery was necessary.
I declined the procedure, and was prescribed pain meds, which did not work.
I was pretty upset after that.. I thought my wrist was getting fixed and I guess I was just really disappointed and ashamed. I couldn't quite bring myself to update, and I didn't know what to say. Things got even more hectic as the year went on, and I just lost track of my art side.
So here I am now, a year later and my wrist is still the same. I'm on my "last summer break" before school resumes and the working world hits again, so I started to paint while I can. I still feel pain when I draw for too long but.. for now it's worth it.. My wrist won't kill me, I'll get it fixed one day, I just need to be patient during the processes again. I was just reminded of the joys of painting and drawing when I sat down to paint with my little sisters at home this past week. I look back at my old drawings and journals and wonder how I was so positive-- Who knew I'd be motivating my future self? haha!
She proceeded to tell me that my pain was not located near my cysts and that there was a risk of damaging my radial artery if there were any complications during surgery (the risks I already knew), and that because my pain was far from the cysts, the surgery would probably not relieve the pain I was experiencing. That was something I didn't know. She then asked if I was still willing to do the procedure.
The thought in my head: Are you kidding me? You couldn't have told me this before? I waited a whole month for this surgery when I could have been getting a second opinion and possibly treatment elsewhere? Side note: I was on a time crunch. My post-grad program (halfway across the country) was starting soon and I needed all the time I could for recovery if a surgery was necessary.
I declined the procedure, and was prescribed pain meds, which did not work.
I was pretty upset after that.. I thought my wrist was getting fixed and I guess I was just really disappointed and ashamed. I couldn't quite bring myself to update, and I didn't know what to say. Things got even more hectic as the year went on, and I just lost track of my art side.
So here I am now, a year later and my wrist is still the same. I'm on my "last summer break" before school resumes and the working world hits again, so I started to paint while I can. I still feel pain when I draw for too long but.. for now it's worth it.. My wrist won't kill me, I'll get it fixed one day, I just need to be patient during the processes again. I was just reminded of the joys of painting and drawing when I sat down to paint with my little sisters at home this past week. I look back at my old drawings and journals and wonder how I was so positive-- Who knew I'd be motivating my future self? haha!
Sorry, I said this would be short but instead it's a whole novel long!
TL;DR: Due to apparent miscommunication, the surgery was canceled and my chronic wrist sprain has since been left untreated.
Thanks to everyone who has wished me well, and who has stuck by me until now! You're all the best!! I've been painting a bit lately and I'll post some of it up.
Cheers!
SP
2020 366 Project!
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Surgery on my right wrist in about 10 hours..
Hi all! I keep saying I'll come back to deviantART and I deeply wish I that I did-- but I guess right now what I want to do is give a small update of my life right now:
This morning, I'll be having surgery on my right wrist. I have a jellybean-sized cluster of ganglion cysts in pockets near my radial artery that may have stemmed from a chronic wrist sprain from early 2008; not sure when exactly it formed, but gradually the pain while writing/drawing/painting has been getting worse/more frequent, so I had an MRI done last month and the cysts were discovered. At this point, the concern is the risk of damaging that artery during operation. It s
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AH. :( It's the drafting desk I've been drooling over for almost a year now.. I've had it saved in my bookmarks and I always open the page to sigh at it because I can't afford it with all the tuition and fees from school (even though it's such
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It's so GREAT to hear from you. I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. Doctors are such a pain, maybe in in for the money and I feel like sometimes we are just a step up from the past. Anyway, I hope things get better and that we can see some art from you soon. I myself have been out of commission and have found my way back. Anyway, best of luck to you! I'm rooting for you! Remember to take care of yourself, rest, but don't quit! The post grad program will be worth it. I need to get back in it and you've inspired me.